An ode to the summer (a lesson learned)

Before the summer started I was talking with friend about summertime goals. She was telling how she needed motivation to lose a little weight before the beginning of the next school year (she's a school teacher). It got me to thinking, maybe I should set my own summertime goals. So I set out to think of reachable (yet difficult) goals that I could reach for over a 3-4 month period. I already had 2 video projects on the editing board that I was pressuring myself to finish. Once i decided to create a directors reel I wanted to make it diverse. Music videos, short films, features, documentaries, etc. What better way to diversify my reel then to add it to the list of goals i'd reach for, so one of my goals was to create 2 more projects this summer. Trying to become a director has been a lot more difficult than i've cared to admit in the past. Trust is very key, you need gain individuals trust. The people need to know they can trust you, especially when you have nothing to show them as far as work, so they have to "trust" you won't f**k them over. The word free has been apart of my vocab during this journey also. In order to get to where you want with no work you'll be doing a lot of "free" work because no ones gonna pay an unproven videographer. back to the story tho. My thoughts were to thrust myself into the city (Philadelphia) and see where I'd land. Got a call one evening from a former client about a possible opportunity that he wanted me to look into. To be honest, I blew the thought of another opportunity off (this guy wasn't the most reputable) until I received a text from the person who was possible interested in my services. She wanted to meet up to discuss the opportunity of me working for her. Making a long story short, we met (she's gorgeous), discussed, worked together, and there's a project on my external hard drive with her name on it. When setting out to achieve goal that you set, I've come to realize, it isn't as easy as I wanted it to be. I've been flaked on at least four or five times this summer, I've procrastinated on at least 2 opportunities (smh, same on myself)and I haven't been able to find leads on anything (semi excuse). Now that the summer is coming to an end and I've only half completed this goal I feel like a I've learned from this minor failure. I've learned that just because I only completed half of my goals, the summer wasn't a full failure. Also, I should've been specific about how I wanted to create these "other" videos. Why couldn't generate one myself? Why couldn't I write something, shoot it, and add it to the reel? So I've decided extend these goals through the rest of the year while I finish writing my first short film. I guess this is one set of goals that I'll be reaching for a lil longer.