He chewed me out!!

I created this blog because I thought I'd have something to say, I always have something to say. It's funny because I'm struggling just write this entry, or maybe it's sad. I'd been telling people, everyone, that I working to become a film director. If you receive awards for the amount of people you can tell you're going to do something without actually doing it, I'd have a huge award to show off. I wasn't doing what I was telling everyone I was doing, or for better words i wasn't doing it to the best of my ability. I could blame it on personal issues that have plagued me over the last 8-10 months or I could fight through and work hard, I choose the latter. My uncle seen that i wasn't doing what I was suppose to, and he decide to "call me" on it. Me: hello? Uncle: Wassup, haven't heard from you in a while what you been up to? Me: Nothing much, working hard Uncle: How's production work coming? Me: Silence For the next 45 minutes after that silent moment my uncle went on to tear into my ass about how I needed to re-focus. Most times I would've taken what he was saying to me personally because he didn't know what my current situation was. But I remained quiet because I knew my situation. i knew i wasn't working hard enough, I believed he knew it also. The convo ended with him telling me that I was pursuing the wrong profession, and that I needed to re-evaluate what i was doing. That's crazy, right? Well, about 20 minutes later my old college roommate called and i told him about the conversation and while telling him he stops me and says "dude, this is motivating me, think about it!" So I did, i thought about it for a few seconds and I responded "you know what you're exactly right it is making me feel some type of way other than offended" his words began to resonate with me. I wasn't working hard as i should, i wasn't exhausting all of my resources. Since then, I've began re-writing the ship. Re-opening my creative section, taking a few risk, and allowing the chips to fall where they may. And it's all because of silecne...